Turning Tears to Trust

I was reading one of my devotionals today and a few words really hit home which made me think of an acronym W.A.A.H.  Words, Attitude, Action & Hope [WAAH].  When I see WAAH, I think of tears/crying.  The devotional was talking about how we say we trust God, but do we really show that we are?

We should be trusting God in all things; in the troubling times and the good times.  I am guilty of being someone who says “I’m going to trust God”, but then I let my worries and impatience trump what I say.  

Words – If we say we are trusting in God, are these ‘just words’ to say?  Do we say them out of habit? We need to mean what we say.  Not only does it release us from thinking we need to do things on our own, but it pleases God showing we truly do trust him.  You know the saying “walk the walk and talk the talk”?  This is very true!

Attitude – How does my demeanor come across to others?  Does it match my words when I say that I am trusting God?  Does my attitude come across as negative or does it show my strength in trust? 

Action – What actions am I taking to keep trusting in God?  I need to pray and stay in the Word; daily.  Am I helping others in need?  Putting my energy elsewhere will  take the focus off myself and allow God to do his work.

Hope – All the above gives way to HOPE!  Having trust in God shows our faith that he will get us through no matter what.  Faith gives way to hope!

I can’t even count how many times, hours, days, and years I have wasted on worrying and crying over something, saying “I trust God” or “I’m giving it over to God to take care of”, then I immediately try and work it out on my own.  We live in a world wanting immediate resolutions, looking for quick fixes, and always a feel-good outcome.  Trusting in God does not always mean the outcome will be what I want, but trying to fix things on my own, only gets in the way of God. I am learning patience and I am absolutely a work-in-progress.  God’s timing and HIS plan are always spot on, even if they don’t make sense to me.  It is okay to cry, feel pain, feel anxious, worry, and to be afraid.  Ultimately, we have to turn our tears (WAAH) over to God and allow him to take the reigns. 

We will never know why things turn out the way they do.  Sometimes it is because of our own doing, sometimes not.  This is the mystery of the world; the mystery of God.  However, we have to trust, have faith, and have hope.

Unfortunately, part of life is experiencing hard times and we can’t avoid it. We need to be prepared so when these times hit, we cannot let it define us and keep us from living.  I have had plenty of hard things happen in my life, mostly by my own doing.  I have gotten in God’s way one too many times.  As I grow, I realize more and more my need to trust God,  and I simply cannot do life without him.  It doesn’t mean for me to sit back and do nothing.  It means to continue living, do the best I can, and ALWAYS look to God first and foremost!

Release our tears to God.  Turn our tears to trust; trusting Him.  No matter the circumstances or how long it takes, never give up on trusting God!

Jeremiah 29:11
Psalm 139:23-24

You Gotta Love The Skin You’re In!

Being ”HEALTHY” looks different on everyone; not the number on the scale!

Years ago, I would never think of saying that statement out loud; “You gotta love the skin you’re in”. For most of my life, I had low self-esteem. So, how did I go from viewing my body-image as being overweight and never consistently comfortable in my own skin, to a person who is very happy ‘just being me’?

When you hear the saying “you are a product of your own environment” it is so true. I grew up with a mom who was overweight. I would hear arguments between my parents and they were usually about her weight. Growing up, and being a product of my own environment, I thought in order to have a happy marriage or relationship, you had to be thin; to be loved, you had to be a person who was a perfect size “0”. Crazy, I know. I didn’t even know I was thinking that way; I just acted on what I was conditioned to, based on the actions around me. I had a good childhood with lots of friends and family coming over. We always had music playing in our home, dancing, my sister and me performing with our hairbrushes as our microphones, etc. Who knows why certain things from our childhood stick with us. Just to be clear, I have never been overweight; maybe a bit chunky at times, but never overweight. However, what I would see in the mirror, was a fat girl. Wow, such a distorted view of myself.

I would weigh myself every day, twice a day. Who does that? Well, apparently my father did and I had no idea. My dad and I were talking one day about being healthy, exercising, etc., and somehow, we got on the subject of weight. My father’s words were “Teri, you’ll never have a weight issue because you have always been thin.” At the time, I thought that was such a compliment, especially coming from my dad. Little did he know just how wrong he was; I did have a weight issue. I found this out later in life, much later, when I went to counseling. The reason I went to counseling had nothing to do with weight, but it sure came out in one of my sessions. My counselor had me do an exercise where I would not weigh myself for a full week. The first day was such an eye-opening experience because I immediately felt like an addict who just had her drugs taken away from her; making me go cold-turkey. That week was a hard week for me, because I was sure that I gained at least five or more pounds. However, when I weighed in after that week, the number on the scale was exactly the same as it was a week prior. That number on the scale used to control my moods and how my day would be going. It was so eye-opening on how I used to view my body and myself. All the years I wasted worrying about the way I looked and the way I thought others perceived me. I had to recondition my way of thinking and the way I viewed myself. Doing this is not an easy undertaking; especially after years and years of thinking a certain way.

It’s unfortunate we live in a world where we are obsessed with our looks. It usually starts at home, so I pray it starts with you. You are never too old to learn something new, you are never too old to change (if you want to), and it is never too late to make a difference with yourself and others. Make that difference, it’s worth it!

“Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.” Romans 12:2

Resurrection Sunday!

Happy Resurrection Sunday! I felt Easter Sunday would be a perfect day to start the first post of my new blog. A good day for new beginnings! Time and time again, I have been told that somewhere in my crazy world, I have a story (or two) to tell that may help someone who needs encouragement and support from a person who has been there and done that.

For those of you who do not know me, I am a believer in God. However, I am also a sinner. That sure sounds contradictory for a “Christian”, right? Just because I am a Christian or any other Christian for that matter, does not make us immune to sin. We are only human and no one is perfect; no one except God. However, I try to do the right things, make the right choices, but when I don’t, I pull up my boot-straps, ask for forgiveness and do the best I can not to fall again. The main thing for me, is not dwelling on the past. What’s done is done. Spiritual growth is a work in progress and trust me, I am too! I do my best to stay in a routine of reading the Word, journaling and staying in communication with God. The minute I deviate from that part of my daily routine, I don’t seem to be at my best. We all have what works for us to get through the trials of life. Some choose yoga, exercise, meditation, … I choose staying in communication with God. Although, I definitely need to incorporate more of that exercise piece.

I have been known to be a starter of many things and rarely a finisher of one thing. Today was my deadline for starting and posting this blog and I am happy to say I actually finished one thing!

Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.” Isaiah 43:18